We need each other

 I am not sure how to start this out. I am kind of realizing I really need to rely on other people to help me out when I really need help. I think I have been trying to manage on my own. Me and God. But sometimes God puts people in our lives to help us out. So now I have been trying to use some people to  help with my kids school work, and watch my kids, hang out with my kids, and doing a co-op has helped a lot too! I am only one person.  I can't be everywhere at once. To have people I can call for different things is really helpful and if you are one of those people...Thank you!!! As many of you may know I have been on a program to help my family heal and go to counseling. I haven't done much for work outside of my small businesses. Although the last month and a half I have been trying to train for a new career.  During the training phase you don't get paid for anything and you have to pay to take some classes online and get licensed.  It has been a bit hard.  But I am getting there.  It's hard to know the balance between being with my kids and working. It seems my kids are struggling with it and its hard on them.  Its been hard on me too. We are still healing.  I have now scheduled it to where I can work 3full days and have the other 4 off.  Being in the working world is so different.  I miss just being a mom and having time to help others.  Anyway.  I still get a bit of money from the state, but its not really enough to cover everything.  I used my tax return for as long as I could.  But I have slowly fallen behind on most of my bills.  And this month has been especially hard. I have been trying to pay for my licensing, and I made a very small payment to get a working car since my van is just about done, I need to get around for work, which is extra gas expense too. So I don't know.  Things are really tight right now.  I know God will provide. I've been thankful for my friends who let me use their washing machine because mine is still broke. Sometimes things seem to pile up on you all so hard, but I know it can only get better from here. And its ok if I admit things are a little hard. I think I never wanted to allow myself to say things are hard, because in doing so, it somehow would mean before was better, but that's not true.  Funny the things our minds convince us of. I know good things are coming, and we will get through this small hump. Thanks for being supportive.